How have you been feeling this last week or so? If you are feeling like you are in a blender of emotions and strong energies, unable to focus and confused, please know you are not alone and that the Super Blood Moon Eclipse of last Wednesday probably played/plays a big role in this. And don’t worry as this is a time of powerful transformation and internal awakening.
Eclipse season
It is Eclipse Season! Eclipses, if used consciously, are considered thresholds to new gateways and openings to higher potentials. Eclipses mark endings and beginnings, as well as releasing and seeding. Lunar eclipses are all about clearing pathways and solar eclipses are associated with beginnings. So right now is a potent opportunity for letting go (and the Solar Eclipse on June 10th is the seeding of the new.)
Get out of the groove
Personally, I have been releasing and letting go of even more old patterns, programs, and conditioning, in an attempt to implement and integrate a new way of moving through life. However, this is not easy and when not paying attention, I find myself going back to my habitual patterns. My pitfall is doing too much and wanting to do too much, I am programmed that I need to be busy, to be useful, otherwise I am wasting time and useless. Ofcourse this is not true, but programming runs deep. Also I am multi-passionate and super curious, so I feel I need every minute to explore potentials and ideas and ofcourse this is counterproductive and I end up doing less, not being able to delve deep enough and ending up overstimulated and exhausted as I am spreading myself too thin. It is good to be aware of all our subconscious patterning and then to take action to break the spell by starting to re-programm so ‘doing/acting’ otherwise than our default dictates. It is key to start to overwrite the groove with new pathsways. It’s not easy, but not impossible. I AM Possible.
Our ally, the tarot
And to quote Lindsay Mack as a reminder;
“You also have your Tarot deck, a profound source of nourishment and clarity in these wild times. You can always look to this tool (or any other helping tool that you engage with) as a gentle North Star, one that can be a homecoming in moments where we feel lost. Tarot is an ally that can help us be with anything — and I mean anything — that arises in life. It can stand by our side in the midst of grief, rage, betrayal, and pain. It can offer us guidance when we fuck up and feel confused.”
And on Wednesday I did this spread by Lindsay Mack:
The Eclipse Portal spread
“Eclipse portals are a reset and a rebirth, a time to see and acknowledge what is usually hidden and buried. While sometimes uncomfortable, these cycles always offer huge potential for change and growth.I hope this spread serves you in the process of bowing to what’s here and welcoming in what’s next for you.”
For my personal tarot reading I used The Unknown Shadows Tarot deck (2nd edition)
- What is present? – 10 of Wands mirrors what I wrote about earlier in this post as present in my life now is stress, exhaustion and too many responsibilities. Feel like I am juggling life and to do-lists, instead of intuitively choosing where to place my attention and intention.
- What is being shown to me at this Eclipse? – 7 of Cups, oh yes my stalker card ofcourse, and this shows me my temptations and dreams, distractions and having too many choices which are leading to little focus and depth. This lesson is so hard to learn for this multi-passionate Libra. Though this is a powerful time for letting go all that distraction and help focus on what really matters and gives energy. I need to decide what is most important for me at this time and deepen that in my life.
- What new cycles are being initiated? – 9 of Wands tells me to be ready for anything as this is a test of courage, persistence and boundaries. I will need firmness and will-power for this new cycle. Protect myself from all distractions and temptations, stay on course!
- Where am I transforming? – Shadows is a bonus card in this deck. And yes as well as the collective shadows are being transformed so are our personal shadows and I am no exception. In each part of ourselves that we have overlooked or disowned, there is always a gift hidden beneath the dark exterior. One of the greatest gifts of reclaiming our shadow is freedom from judgment of self and others. We are called to become free to choose how we want to be in each moment and act with awareness.
- Where am I being asked to evolve and grow? – 10 of Coins, no surprise, in prosperity and even more important stability.
- What has to be released in order for me to do this? – Knight of Swords suggests a change in lifestyle and that I need to slow down; otherwise I am at risk of severe burnout and exhaustion. I feel this clearly, I am feeling and hearing the warning. Now I need to set up clear boundaries and allow myself to refill my cup.
Oh wow this tarot reading so affirms what I already know, but keep pushing away as it is not the right timing to take a break and seek to alter my lifestyle. Ofcourse I know this is silly and only makes it worse. Time is running out and it is important to stop stalling and start acting on creating our dreams. Stop postponing or waiting for a better time. Now is perfect, there will never be a better moment. So thank you tarot, a great reminder for me to muster the guts to make this change, make the choice and go for it! Now!
Clearing your energy
This week’s full moon vibration can still be felt clearly, so you can let it help let anything that was still brooding in your unconscious, come to the surface to purge. Perhaps you have noticed it during your dreams this week. That they were intense or that you wondered what this had to say.
Purify, purify and purify. On the way to full transparency and every step you take is another one. Be grateful to yourself for how far you have already come. All the steps you have already made. Also make contact with the lightness, the cheerfulness, the playfulness in it. It doesn’t have to be so dramatic anymore. Let the love flow for yourself and for everything that arises.
I wish you a beautiful liberating week. Be well.
