At the beginning of this month we celebrated Imbolc, the midpoint of Winter and the last, usually coldest and most bleak stretch of the journey through the biting dark months towards the Spring time and the rebirth of the Earth.
At the moment I am typing this my desk is bathing in sunshine. We had 18 degrees Celsius weather this week which is more suiting Spring/Summer here in The Netherlands. While the week before we had snow and ice with temperatures dropping way below zero (I saw -18 C on my thermometer). How quick things can change! I am so grateful for the sunshine and warmth and I go outside as much as I can to drink in the rays of goodness. This winter has been (and it still is Winter, so we can still expect cold weather) so dark and moody and the lockdown and curfew not helping things, at times I felt very sad and frozen. No where to go, no warm hugs, no art in musea or music at gigs to sooth my soul. Just me, myself and I in a cold house and yes at times that felt somewhat heavy and depressing. Though I am grateful for the extra time to be alone, turn inward and recover from all stress 2019 brought. Wintertime is hermit time and provides us space to get ready for the Spring equinox where growth is central. Imbolc let everything die that will not make it until Springtime. Annual plants do not tolerate this cold and die, though this sounds harsh, it is also beneficial. The snow purifies all and purification can help heal sterile ideas or feelings within myself.
This morning The Snow Moon, the Full Moon in Virgo, graced the sky. This is the final Full Moon of Winter and is all about germination. The theme of the snow moon is the early germination, because not every seed that falls on the earth will germinate. So in other words, not every idea that comes to mind is practicable. This full moon helps shine light on the areas in our lives that are going well, and on the areas that may need some cleansing or weeding. Virgo is about the Earth plane and the physical world. It is about how we use our bodies and our hands to shape materials and outcomes and that Virgo energy is working together with the Pisces Sun to help us embody and fulfill a bigger picture that gives meaning and purpose to our lives. During this period you can think about what it is worth for you to indicate germination and what needs to be released to give space to your real plans. Feel in your heart what you want to grow. It is a good time to reflect on the fact that you can actually create anything you want.
And this theme is something I am working with now as I am in a bit of a creative rut. The distractions and tension of all the C-19 regulations and the fatigue of last year is releasing now and I am just very tired. Though slowly but steadily I am feeling positive energy grow in my heart. I feel calm and at times even giddy with joy. Last week a bird’s song made me cry and I am just overjoyed to see flowers popping up everywhere. I am reminded to be grateful for nature and trust that life moves in circles. We are never stuck, we are just invited to move with the flow. This is the Full Moon after Imbolc and before Ostara and nature is awakening from its hibernation.
This morning at the height of the Full Moon I did this tarot reading for myself. I used a spread by The Curious Cardslinger. I used the Infernal Tarot deck .
First thing I notice is a lot of Court Wands and a lot of pentacles. One Major, The World.
- XXI The World shows I am overcritical when it comes to goals and in particularly finishing them. I put myself under too much pressure to end cycles and start new ones. Especially this Winter I haven’t been very productive as in doing the things I long to do and planned to do. I haven’t been idle, I just feel disappointed for not having done as much as I was aiming for. This is a good reminder to know that not all growth is visible and that the journey is more important than reaching the destination, so enjoy the ride.
- King of Wands shows that when I set out to accomplish what I set out to achieve I need to be a little more kind and not quite so rigid self-centered and in control. Lighten up a little and have fun, be free, proud and passionate.
- Ten of Cups shows me to show up for my friends and other loved ones and play together, it is time to celebrate. Focus on positivity and those around me will also feel the benefits of the good energy radiating from me. I was just talking about this with a friend this morning and it is so true. We often seek grand things to do to help humanity and we forget how powerful our energy is just by being and showing up. Live from the heart and radiate love, this is so very powerful.
- Queen of Wands shows my creative force and organizing skills. This Queen is energetic, courageous and passionate. When I tap into my energy source and find my balance I have an abundance of energy and am efficient in helping others. This Queen gets things done.
- Knight of Wands shows that the above will not come to fruition unless I relax, lighten up and allow in the passion, enthusiasm and confidence. Be a free spirit!
- Three of Pentacles shows learning studying and hard work and yes I am always studying and I work many hours. This card reminds me that I would benefit from more balance between work and passion.
- Ace of Pentacles shows not to stress about money or income and be grateful for what I have and focus on all the goodness in the world and all the beautiful people I know, that is true abundance.
- Two of Pentacles (a stalker card of mine) also stresses to let go of multi-tasking, juggling ‘must do’s’ and constantly weighing options. Follow my heart and all will be well.
Clear space, charge your crystals, hold ritual, be gentle with yourself, be kind, give love, and have a fabulous Snow Moon weekend!