I wanted to post sooner, about the powerful Super Full Moon in Scorpio, but time is just not working for me at the moments, days seem to blend together and planning is just outdated. During this Full Moon – and still am in this Moon’s window – I am working with those deep dark Scorpio aspects and the stings are painful but transformative. This Full Moon in Scorpio invites introspection, digging in the dark places of our psyches, and regeneration. We are nudged, well more pushed, to make changes. Scorpio hides beneath the surface and discloses gifts to those who are brave enough to plunge into places they don’t understand and fear. In these depths pay close attention to your deepest longings for they are clues for you to follow to start creating a new life. This is a moon of transformation with a potential of deep soul healing. This moon is magick!
Cha-cha-changes
May is a month of even more changes in our lives. Can we handle it? Yes we can! Hold strong. These changes are quite personal, going beyond the C-word and the overall corruption of our world, because it is Retrograde time; Saturn retrograde May 11-September 29, Venus retrograde May 13-June 25, and Jupiter retrograde May 14-September 12. These are catalyzing a big life review involving responsibility, relationships, and success. Retrograde cycles involve all the re-words, such as review, reassess, rethink, re-envision, refocus and redo. It can feel very dark and heavy at times, because what we need to review may not be what we want to see, we have been resisting this subconsciously for so long now. This is also why so many people are triggered right now, because deep down they know what needs to be done on a personal level first and then the global level. All eyes are now on the global crisis, but face your own shadow now and do the deep inner work need to make the changes needed on the larger scale. Feel empowered that you can make a huge difference by healing yourself. This is a very powerful time to make personal changes that previously seemed impossible.
Rebel Rebel
As you may know, I work with Archetypes (in SoulCollage and Tarot) and at the moment the call of The Rebel is raging powerfully within me waiting for me to answer the Call this time. Now I will write more about this in another blogpost as I am in the middle of this process, but this is my work at the moment. The world is now having a huge Child archetype betrayal moment and lots of Rebels are rising. Resistance is futile.
Under Pressure
I needed to clear my head as I was being triggered (again) by people not wanting to see what I feel is happening in the world and where things are heading. I am triggered in old fear for people pushing back at me (old old pain of rejection) and calling me a conspiracy theorist and evil for not living in perpetual fear of this virus. And the disillusionment of people I love dearly going along with the program. It breaks my heart losing friends, but I am making new connections. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind people not agreeing with me, the world is not black and white and we shouldn’t all agree (and a Rebel is fine with that), but I have a low tolerance for name-calling, snitching, looking away and cowardice. These past months we have seen rights and freedoms disappear on a daily basis. And thankfully many people like me have decided they want their freedom more than they want “safety” as that’s no security at all. Many truth tellers are getting censored and de-platformed and what we knew to be free speech no longer exists. I find it very challenging to see people sheepishly walking towards slaughter. And I so hope I am wrong and I do understand that just as most people are programmed by the MSM, I am programmed to question authority and the official narrative. So this can be my my blind spot and I can be wrong, I truly hope so. But I find it a challenge to just be okay with what is happening at the moment and to have to live in this ‘new abnormal’ society.
And then I realize it is important not to get stuck in speculation, it is much more important how we get out of this changed for the better and that we decide together what the ‘new normal’ will be, that we do not make it dependent on the ‘people in charge’.
So yesterday I woke up early and I took a long walk (almost 25 km) to awaken my body and clear my mind. Drink in vitamine D and be in the moment, without any media or other outside chatter, just silence, the sound of wind in the trees and birds singing. And I felt a lot of triggers pull away which brought in more clarity and a deep love for this world, for people, and a deep compassion for our great pain. Our loss, our worldwide grieving. And I cried with mourning and nostalgia. Here I was walking in old-fashioned Dutch landscapes, seemingly untouched by time, while the world is slowly changing into…. yes into what? That is the big question, and we the people hold the answer. We have the power.
Jump they say
This world is hijacked by fear and a great amount of people are displaying Stockholm Syndrome. Because we don’t know what we fear exactly and we don’t see what is coming and we are only told constantly that it is ‘very very bad’, concrete fear (as in a snake attacking you) has now been transformed into a diffuse fear, a fear that is intangible. We can keep this up for a few weeks, but then we can stretch this no further, we exhaust ourselves and in this situation, most people are asking, if not begging, for clear strict measures. People want security and that doesn’t exist, really it doesn’t let that illusion go. And yes it is a complex situation and yes it is difficult for the government to develop these measures (now is it?), but critical voices must also be heard, not to create unrest, but because they may be able to offer a solution or look at the problem in some other way. But now this is immediately censored. The latter is also dubious, why are no other viewpoints allowed and dealt with so strongly? Look to the past and learn the lessons they teach us. Open your eyes and your heart, something is off and people know it and that is also why they lash out so strongly when you address these issues, people are triggered. Now I don’t believe all the ‘alternative’ voices and ‘truthers’ are truthful (perhaps they think they are), but I do feel each of us holds a piece of the puzzle. Now do you really believe everything Main Stream Media brings? Follow the money and the system controlling media and you will start to wonder. It is important that everything becomes open, literally and figuratively. The stricter the control, the more people will rebel.
We live in a time when we must develop our discernment and our ability to sort through confusing or biased information to discover the facts and our own truth. Discernment is a developing skill of withholding judgment and avoiding fear while investigating information, data. Both skills need honing so that we don’t get caught up in the latest hysteria or name calling.
Yes I ask questions about the governments’ approaches and yes I have such a suspicion where this scenario will lead to, but I have decided that I will not be guided by this, but rather focus on the gifts and insights that this time brings. When our fears are dangled over our heads and we feel threatened we can easily find ourselves running from the fear in our heads, this ultimately affects our lives externally. Keep in mind that much of our fears are rooted in speculation, in other words, we spend more time worrying about avoiding it instead of living here and now. The fact of the matter is that all that you have is the present moment, here and now, again the rest is speculative! Come back to center!
Little Wonder
Take this time to see what you’re thankful for now we are out of our routines and having to with less. Perhaps you miss real contact and revalue this as very important in your life while before you may have taken it for granted. Perhaps you notice you do fine without going shopping. Perhaps you exercise more and feel your body becoming stronger, perhaps you are spending more time in nature and find that you can rest and recover in her arms. There are so many things to discover right now and to revalue what you deem worthy for the future. Ordinary human closeness has been revalued and with Pluto (now in Capricorn) moving to Aquarius, The Humanitarian, in 2024, we will become more people-centred and we dare to learn from our vulnerability and that life is not about money and the latest gadgets, but about people-to-people contact. Think of this time ast the harbinger of what we can create.
Or do we want to go back to the way things were? I don’t believe we can and personally I think this is an opportunity not to build a new system like the one that now collapsed but take a more creative approach as us humans are meant to create. We need to move away from financial systems and work on deep structural changes, as we can’t go on like we did.
This time we are in the place between the old and new, the void and this can be very challenging, stuck, suspended, between that was and what will be. Interestingly here we have most potential to create something radically new and wonderful. After this we will have an expanse of time that we can create a new way of being in. Let us all slow down and see that there is an opportunity and a gift in this. The gift to reconsider choices, to set new priorities and the space to live more attentively and consciously.
My deepest dissatisfaction lies with the current state of affairs is that the C- crisis is currently only approached from a materialistic point of view and that there is no room for a spiritual approach to this crisis. We need to be open to ourselves. Operating systems that overpower and shadow our own wisdom only stand in the way of human dignity and development. Personally, I think there is a good chance that we will see in hindsight that the current crisis marks the beginning of a growing dichotomy in society, between people who are looking for answers on a materialistic level and people who think spiritually and are therefore looking for spiritual insights, for measures associated with these insights and for an attitude to life that resulting from this.
No Plan
To move forward and get out of this paralyzing stuckness, the first thing we all need to release right now is fear (I am also speaking to myself, I am not in fear of the virus, but of what the future holds, I am not in constant fear, but it creeps up and yes I am doing the work). Do not let fear rule you and you do this by accepting that this is happening, stop fighting, stop justifying, denying, but accept the situation and also that we will be in this for a long time coming. Acceptance will dissipate a lot of fear and give you more energy, energy needed to stay strong and health. And by accepting I don’t mean agreeing and consenting, I know I don’t. But I accept that this is the reality I find myself in at the moment and that I now focus my energy on what I can do to further shape what is of real value. Try to be as relaxed as possible as less stress is more health and a better immune system!
I don’t believe in protesting as the harder we fight the more energy we lose and the harder they fight back. And there is a different energy in fighting than standing by our truth. We can’t change the world we see mirrored back at us by fighting it, but we can change ourselves and how we respond and mirror that to the world. Try not to become part of the problem but be free and be love. Now this sounds new age airy fairy, but it is super powerful. It is not looking away, but looking it straight in the face and not letting it affect you. Go your own way, together with others, united in love and mutual support, not aggression and control. Us humans are meant to connect, to touch as this strengthens our immune system, it is our natural way of being. So reach out and touch. I received a spontaneous hug from a stranger the other day and it did me so much good. We looked each other in the eye and I think we both recognized that there was no fear in our eyes and we both laughed (also very good for immunity) at the ridiculousness of the 6 feet – society. So instead of dancing 6 feet around each other we just hugged and shook hands. Now of course I take into account people who are vulnerable and I don’t go around hugging random people, I do not trivialize the virus, but I do feel we should have our own say in this and hug if we need one.
I was reminded to Lennon’s quote the other day
“What if they gave a war and nobody came?”
Imagine… civil disobedience… imagine your power
Now when I write these things I think in the back of my mind ‘yes nice words Charissa, now put it into practice’ and yes this calmness and clarity is what I feel and receive when I meditate, do yoga, am in nature, make art, or do something else in my flow, but then I meet angry people on social media or outside and then I let myself be seduced again to react to old triggers and my low tolerance for control, abuse of power and injustice comes to the surface. And I accept that I will be triggered again and I will probably react again, but each time is an opportunity for a new way of being and responding, new opportunities and a re-focus on the possibilities and gifts that this time brings. May we come out of this stronger and more connected.
We can help other people by facing our fears and staying calm and kind, because just as you can sense fear in the air, you can also sense love and compassion. Could it be that this disaster is a first push to topple corrupt and destructive systems? To stop the overproduction and overconsumption of goods? To give Gaia a chance to recover and also give ourselves a chance to catch our breath and reflect on what we are doing and where we are heading?
Now what will you do with your time?
