Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
On the 9th we had a full moon in Libra – the sign of balance – but squaring Neptune and Mercury, both of which are in Pisces. Questions emerge such as “Are we stuck in delusions? Do we control our illusions (reality) or do they control us? Do we use our creative power to manifest our lives with intention, or do we not use that power at all?” Our creative powers are our highest good and we can use this now in an effort to create the peace, joy, love and abundance we want in our lives and in the world.
This Full Moon I suddenly saw everything very clearly and I snapped out of my nightmare. I wrote pages and pages in my journal and didn’t sleep for two nights. Some of the things I wrote I will try and fit in this blogpost.
The past weeks have been a struggle, it probably has been for most people in the world. Now I have it very easy, I am healthy, not in immediate danger of losing my job and I have food and a roof over my head. On the outside I am fine. However I didn’t want to accept the situation the world is in right now, I couldn’t understand and support the decisions being made and forced upon us and I worried about the (police) state of the world and our collective future. Slowly I saw my worst nightmare come to pass, a totalitarian state, with complying citizens. People policing, snitching and shaming each other (hello have we learned nothing from Nazi Germany – “but we didn’t know”…) and people begging for vaccines and strict police and military interference. I was baffled. No thinking, no questioning, just accepting the narrative. Again have we learned nothing from the past? Watching people so easily accept orders to self isolate, ‘lock-down’ the same words they use jails. Let that sink in for a moment.
Also I was worried about so much ‘collateral damage’, for instance people dying of hunger, people losing their livelihoods, suicides because of loneliness and lack of help, people with other ailments not being treated and people having to suffer and die alone.
And I understand that we are all in a state of anxiety and stress and we all act on fear in different ways. Some buy toilet paper, others feel safe hiding behind masks and scarves, some feel it is okay to make fun of others, some try to control people, some demand drugs and vaccines, some spiritual bypass with lots of love & light, group meditations calling on ET races and some blame everything on the Deep State. We are all human and we all are desperate to survive. It is instinct and normal. But do know that fear is the opposite of living?
So many questions
The past weeks I have been mainly riddled with questions. Why the social distancing? How can I infect someone by just standing close to them (unless I cough in their face or talk with too much saliva)? How is walking all by myself in a park harming anyone? How would working at an office with the proper 1,5 meter distance be a problem? Why are we locking in the entire world instead of the people at risk, etc. etc. So many questions. With all the money we are losing now, why didn’t we just make face masks and perhaps gloves for the whole world and got on with our lives (if face masks really work, which I also doubt, as I still doubt the whole contagion thing)?
Seeking truth
I could smell something off, something rotten in all of this, so I started digging for the cause of this stink. And down the rabbit hole I went…yet again. Usually I don’t jump to conclusions and make an effort to really take my time to find out as much as I can and discern truth from fiction, but now the stories just piled on top of each other, like every minute. And it just left me drained, lost in total information overload. Also the alternative press is more corrupt than ever, that it is hard to find out what is really going on anymore. Everyone is contradicting each other and the divide and conquer mechanics are working nicely. There is so much hostility and division among people, any normal and calm dialogue has gone out of the window.
Also there are many agenda’s at play here, so it leaves a minefield of information. And people get so over enthusiastic and desperate (like I did) in wanting to persuade people, so they tend to go overboard with the information and discredit themselves. I had just started to peak some people’s attention on social media to see an alternative view point and I scared them away with frankly too much information and perhaps even disinformation. Open the door slightly and let others open it further for themselves if they choose to. ‘Truthers’ tend to actually close doorways to the truth. I am now trying to distance myself from these topics and study skepticism and logical fallacies instead. Its time for critical thinking. Let the ‘Age of Reason’ begin again. Mind you this can also not be found on television or in newspapers! The true conspiracy is the one we see right in front of us, right there outside your window. The whole world being shut down because of a virus! Now that alone should be enough to make you think.
Anyway a lot of doubt and questions and the official answers just don’t make sense to me. I know I will not find the answers online or in the papers. So that search stops here.
I’ve had a severe migraine attack last week and I haven’t had one for such a long time, so I took a time out. And this did me a world of good. To disconnect. I now clearly see how I am projecting my own fear to my worldview. My fear of being alone, of being shunned, my need for certainty and stability. My fear of the unknown. Of the void. And I am sick of fear, so sick of it and I am ready to embrace this not knowing and not needing to know. All I need is in my heart and there is a feeling of acceptance and belonging. By standing still and looking behind your worries, you can feel life in yourself. I am retiring my tin foil hat and opening my mind to other things, such as the joy of life!
Yes, I am still aware of what is going on. You only have to look at China where you can no longer take a free step because you are continuously followed by means of facial recognition. The app that is under development here to create (false) security leads us to the same situation. And that’s just one example. But I now deliberately choose not to pay attention to this in my output on this blog and social media.
We are now so limited in our freedom, and that is because we can only see the path going left or right. Now if you open to your surroundings and not subjected to the two choices presented you may discover a path straight ahead. We do not know the future. In any case, we have the freedom to think carefully and we have the choice not to automatically follow one of the future forecasters.
I realize that I am as programmed as anyone else. Where others may believe the MSM narrative, I tend to go with the ‘conspiracies’. And sometimes perhaps real life is more frightening than any conspiracy. Now I feel the truth is somewhere in between – isn’t it always, lurking in the shadows, just beneath the surface. I have decided not to listen to any news, mainstream or alternative for a while and first seek the truth within me. I don’t want to give any energy to a dystopian future timeline. I don’t want to lose hope.
“Re-member all ye that existence is pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they pass & are done; but there is that which remains”.
Aleister Crowley
We are waking up
Humanity is waking up and all the illusions we have believed in for so long are being punctured. Poof! That is wonderful and at the same time it can cause great fear. It can make us want to change things because we are afraid and cannot accept that what is. Each of us has his/her own specific contribution to this process. One expresses himself by guiding the youth, the other by taking care of the elderly and yet another to demonstrate the side effects of 5G. I feel my contribution is encouragement and to guide people in regaining the strength within themselves, to help discover that our inner world is more powerful than the outside world and how we can create from there a new society. We are the creators, we are our own saviors. That is what is important right now. So many people are waiting to be saved. Wake up it won’t happen!!
This is Us
Mind you, this has nothing to do with positive thinking as a mental concept! It is the truth of who you really are and to surrender to something much larger than your personality, your ego. When you know yourself, you are empowered. When you accept yourself, you’re invincible.
This is not about me, or you, this is about us. We can create a new future together. We attract a new reality and the things that don’t match this, will simply be exposed and fall away. We need to face what we fear so we can see it for what it is and it will fade away. Fear is contagious, more so than any virus (if it is really contagious at all). So don’t give in to the fear, stop feeding it’s destructive flames. Quench it by creating your own future, one that is filled with love, harmony and community.
Humanity is now facing a global crisis, probably the biggest crisis of our generation. The decisions people make in the next few weeks will shape the world for many years to come. When choosing between alternatives, we should ask ourselves not only how to overcome the immediate threat, but also what kind of world we want to inhabit once the storm passes. Yes, this too shall pass, humankind will survive, most of us will still be alive, but we will inhabit a different world. Now you decide: What kind of world do you want to live in?
The future is not set in stone, but a result of how we show up today. I choose to show up from a place of balance and peace. This is a time to rest and recover, so we can all show up and dissolve our fears, the deep pain that has been keeping us small for far too long now. I long for the day we can finally truly come together and start rebuilding our world. My world is a world of love, gratitude, curiosity, grace, forgiveness, kindness and wonder. What does your world look like?
This is a time for connection, not distance.
I love you, I love this planet, I love humanity and I love life, now let’s go and live it!
P.S. I have been doing daily tarot card pulls and all cards support beautifully that this is a time of turning inwards and we should feel to heal. Out of our heads, in with our hearts.
