I wanna really, really, really wanna zigazig ah

This is a bit of theme in my life, for 44 years now! What do I want? What do I really want? I am not bored and all is fine, but I am so lacking a certain vision and direction and I feel I am missing my boat. I am not getting any younger.

So at the last Full Moon I did this tarot reading for myself. I didn’t post it sooner as I have been struggling to get through my days as I still suffer from the concussion and everything, especially screens and sounds, cost me so much energy.

Now the last Full Moon was in the sign of Leo and the lion empowers us to finally dare to ask for what we really want. Because this moon is strongly connected to planet Mars, we suddenly see crystal clear what you need to achieve your goals. This is the period to follow our passion and really go for what we want.

But how can you set goals if you don’t know what it is you want, you really, really want.

So here goes. I used a deck which was a gift from a friend of mine, it is super nice, a vintage deck from 1985, haha well is ’85 vintage? Then I am a fossil, being from 1975! The deck is called Tarot of the Cat People. Thank you Evalien!!

  1. Where am I at?
  2. What do I really want, what are my unconscious desires, dreams and wishes?
  3. What can I do to make this happen?
  4. What is the outcome if I take these steps?
  1. Seven of Wands – oh wow the first thing I notice is the amount of wands in this reading! Fire, passion and yes that makes sense in this reading as it is about passion or more how I can fix the lack thereof. And two Queens, welcome ladies, I guess I need some feminine power! Now for the where am I at question, the Seven of Wands tells me that I have now attained some success and I can see clearer in the darkness. I have overcome obstacles and challenges from the past and am now trying to shine a light on the future. And yes this is where I am at, perhaps I should give myself a break in wanting so desperately wanting to know what I want and need to strive for. I have been so preoccupied by ‘stuff’ life threw at me. Perhaps taking a break will give me more clarity and at least stop pushing so hard, but becoming curious and let things unfold, nothing more, nothing less. Looking at this card I should perhaps take inspiration from cats for they are happy with the here and now. Haha of course I should start there, before looking at the future.
  2. Queen of Swords – well this is sort of my personal card as for daily living Minors, my persona (High Priestess and Justice are the Archetypes I relate to) – I am a Libra Sun and Rising, so lots of air and yes I have some of her traits, but I am not sure I aspire to be her, is she what I really want to be? She is very logical, self sufficient and truth telling, and yes that’s me, but do I really want to be a smart business woman as she keeps a sharp watch and pounds down her sword to signify pacification by force. I am a bit like that at times, when I really want something I can become quite pushy and I will work had to reach my goal. The traits from this queen I would like more of are to be seen as more quick-witted and sharp and yes to be honest I would like to be more successful in my business as I have now come at a point to calling it quits as it is costing me more money and energy than I am receiving at the moment. I feel this card is telling me that I want to have a successful business. Well time to step up to the game.
  3. Queen of Wands – what I can do to make this happen is learn from the Queen of Wands who is feisty and self-assured, she is confident and a master of her craft. Also she is adaptable and welcoming, has feminine charm and grace. This is also a part of me, but once I get lost in my head I lose track of these virtues. And yes I do need to work on my self-assurance and I feel that focussing on my what makes me happy, where my passion lies, which is practicing my craft, things will unfold naturally. Instead of trying to push it, the way the Queen of Swords tends to do.
  4. Six of Wands – hurrah!! If I practice the above I will be victorious, be recognized and I will have achieved my goals. Results of efforts! Yay!

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