As I was saying to a friend earlier this week, I write these posts for you, but also for myself, they are reminders to self. As I notice things coming up for me and seeing the lessons in them, I want to share them with you because I know that many of us are going through the same things. So what comes up for me, will come up for others. We learn it because we are meant to teach it. That is our purpose. Our message comes out of our biggest messes. What is my life teaching me and making me a master of. This is the case for all of us, so please share
Old habits
What I notice lately is that I have fallen back into old habits. Old habits of losing track of myself, “living” on auto-pilot, pushing my energy boundaries, not listening to my body, overwhelm big time! A sense of lethargy and depression has befallen me. I feel down, heavy and so freaking tired!!! I feel like I weigh a ton. My eyes are red and bloodshot, my hands are shaking and I have so much fog in my brain, I feel completely lost and in the dark. Wow! So I put it out there. I noticed it, I acknowledge it and I am now releasing all shame and judgement that I have about this. The voice in my head goes; ” You should know better”, ” you teach this stuff”, “you are supposed to live mindfully”, “walk your talk, etc….I hear you and choose not to anymore. I am human, I sometimes take steps off track or steps backwards, but I have the power to decide to repack myself and keep walking in compassion and love, in a slower pace and in the light, not head down in the shadow. High five!
Priorities
From birth we are given a false sense of what is important. There is an emphasis on ownership and achievement. Then there is the pressure to spend money on social outings and stuff to hold up an image. So all of this keeps pushing us to work hard and live in a false way. Lately so much in my life has been changing and uncertain that I have now fallen back into fear and am searching for a false sense of security. Which means working too hard, pushing myself and not relaxing in order not to hear that inner voice, that inner voice that does know better. Thankfully I don’t read or listen to any news to distract me and I am awake and aware (I think), which sometimes makes it worse. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so aware, as in ignorance is bliss. But I am thankful that I do now recognise this pattern and behaviour and I am writing it down to remind myself and keep myself accountable. We are given hypnotic distractions and false priorities to steer us away from anything that would empower us and lead us to become independent of the system. It is a system constructed to falsely imprison us with invented illness from poisoned air, water, and food (or if that is what you can call the products we eat). So then we are forced to take advice from the medical world who have been trained by the very structure that created this in the first place. But I am drifting off topic, some other time. Let’s now ask ourselves, do we want to live ordered by a voice on television that tells us what to buy and what to be? Or do we wish to live by our own wisdom and listen to our guides, angels and higher self for what we truly need to concentrate on now? Listen to what is right or wrong for yourself. Go within and ask what is important to have and do, and what is important to release.
Manifesting with speed
And I am manifesting like crazy lately, the good and the bad, almost instantly. So I must really now mind my thoughts and actions. And turn them toward my joy and wishes. I know that repeating the mantra “I am so tired” will keep me tired. But that is also where the challenge lies. Now when I hear the “I am tired” voice come up, I push it away and start working even harder, ignoring the tiredness and push push. But pushing away feelings and thoughts does’t help. So what does, I asked my (Higher) Self? Well acknowledging what you feel, how you feel, be compassionate to yourself, don’t judge an see why it is feeling the way it does and start step by step to fix the cause. But sometimes we are so overwhelmed about what causes it or we don’t see how to change the cause, we feel stuck. What to do?
Turn it around
Well first keep breathing and relax, try to relax and listen to that small voice, listen to your heart. You know, you may not want to know, because you don’t like the answer, but be honest, you know. I listened in and heard that I can now change this belief of tiredness and dis-ease and that it takes a lot of time to recover, also because society dictates that we should feel a certain way. These old beliefs and fear around former burnouts are stuck in the present and this fear and belief that this is true in the present is locking it in. I can change this belief of having to feel down because of circumstances. This all comes out of fear, fear of having to relive old patterns and fear from other people and expectations of how one should feel and behave. But NO I don’t want to recycle that again. So I can change this situation by choosing my thoughts about it and stepping out of this field. So beware when that negative affirmation rears its ugly head and see if you can turn it into a positive one. So “I am so tired”, turns into “I have plenty of energy right now”. But sometimes, we have anchored a certain thought too heavily in our subconscious and thoughts like these only make us sad or hopeless. But we can start by taking babysteps towards a better feeling. For instance in this case, focus on things that you still have energy for or on the moments you get to relax, your comfy couch or long hot shower you just took, focus on how you feel better in those moments and you are not just tired. Add positive thoughts and try to turn around as many negative affirmations as possible. But for affirmations to work you need to believe them.
Groundhog Day
One thing is for certain, if you keep repeating the same thoughts and patterns, you will be dealing with the same problem over and over again. Around and around. The Law of Attraction governs our lives, our thoughts and feelings create our reality. So stop complaining. Be mindful of this pattern, break this cycle. And also stop thinking about what is bothering you, changing your thoughts changes your reality. Try and change intentional thoughts. We can never fully quiet our mind, that nagging voice will keep coming up, but by practicing mindfulness we can spot this happening sooner and nip it in the butt. But stop obsessing, find a joyful distraction and don’t give into the worry cycle. Or give yourself 10 minutes to worry and say to yourself that if you don’t solve it in those minutes you go and focus on something else. Interestingly enough we often receive the answer we are seeking when we are not thinking, when we are distracted and dreaming about something totally different of just staring into space. So take enough time to relax and train your brain to switch off by frequent meditation. Also physical exercise works wonders. Get out of your head and into your body. Start feeling it. Do something you enjoy and raise your vibration. Even if you can’t find joy, fake it! Really it works. Put on that fake smile and low and behold, the body responds.
Moods and behaviours
With practice positive thinking will become your default behaviour and when a negative thought comes up you will recognise it in time and change it. Our moods and actions work together. Altering our moods will change our behaviors, and altering our behaviors will also change our moods. So our actions have a great effect on the circumstances we are attracting.
Bye bye Fear
And step out of living in fear. When we live in fear of something we are actually focussing on that particular thing and sending the message to the Universe to bring you exactely that. Througout your day check in with yourself if you are coming from a place of love of from a place of fear and adjust when needed. Really it is all about focus and pausing every now and then instead of running around like a headless chook (huge note to self!). If you are living from fear, obsessively trying to avoid a presumed danger, this means you are attracting exactely that. Try not to act out of fear.
Miracles
It is now time for magic and miracles. We are not accustomed to seeing miracles as when we are based in our mental paradime, this doesn’t leave room for miracles. So let us get out of our heads and into our hearts. Be kind to yourself. Be loving. Love is the antidote to fear. Don’t let negative thoughts and behaviour rule your life. You are stronger that that. Throughout the day we are bombarded by messages to keep us in fear, because people in fear are easy to control. So please break free and live from love and let’s create a world where we feel safe and light. We need to start with ourselves and work from there. So start noticing what in the day comes up that takes you out of a loving and safe feeling and see if you can banish this cause out of your life, out of your field. Or see if you can severly reduce it. Start taking the reigns to your life and start creating. Creating in Joy. Create Joy. Be Joy. And you will see you will have all the energy in the world!
Call out to your guides and Angels and ask them to show you what changes are necessary to make in the structure of your daily life in terms of activities and in terms of how you live, your “lifestyle” . It can be that you need to let go of things, people and even places. You will feel when the answer is true and it has to be done in order to make room for new and alligned things/people/places in your life. It may be a shock to the people around you, but by living your true life, you will empower others to do the same. Be the change you wish to see in the world. Life your life to your rules and your values. Look at you not others. Welcome in the Fifth Dimension and play! And remember that you are deeply loved and supported.
I would love to read what answers you received and what you do throughout the day to live from joy or if you need some support, to live more from love and say goodbye to fear. Please leave your comments below. We can do this together! We can make heal this world from negativity and make Gaia smile!
Much love, Charissa xxx
